i paint a pretty picture, i paint it with a blade, i paint it on my wrist in blood so it will never fade
but this is not the real me for now i see its just some paint and a brush of a miserable dream
a way to say how i feel

Just in those couple of lines this poem says alot about u and regardless of what other people may think or feel about it, it is very beautiful, strong, and powerful. you're not alone, i feel the exact same way...It's how I write also!