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shyness
dancing (who would've thought)
eagerly
with
courage ...
holding on
with laughter
with tears
with openness
for so long
too many to count
i had always thought
i was destined to be
Alone ...
to help those
around me to ...
reach their destinations.
nothing ..
nothing ever led me
to think
to hope
to believe
for anything else.
i remember those days
mulling in my own
callused hopes
unrested dreams
sometimes
it was painful
to look
from all the
glare ...
distractions ...
tears ...
nothing
i could call
my own
I was not
My Own.
now ...
looking back
looking in
after almost 10 years
i still cannot believe
my shyness
remains to be dancing
with my courage
all from
that first
moment
i looked at him
and whispered
"I do!"