loaded ode, not an ode at all. and mixed preludes

1.
what i hold sacred:
a green bottle,
a container of pills,
the surface of the sun,
my little ground zero,
what i've loved,
all i've lost,
some willow trees,
your mouth.
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2.
can i watch you cry?
you are a legend.
can i watch you learn defeat?
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3.
lost in a forgotten
zig zag dream
of angles gone wrong
and curves cut sharp,
angels gone wrong.
my hand clutches this
cemetary ticket stub.
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(main body)
so i hear
you are an
ADDICT.
we are not each other,
so what's your
friction
story
reason to live
therapy
recovery
process
skill
worth
blindness?
ah,
you have no time
to kill me with.
your skill is blindness,
not worth this process
of recovery, of therapy;
and it is your reason
to live, your story in
your head full of friction.
so i hear
you bleed
FREELY.
we don't need to see it.
but may i watch you cry?
and watch.
ah.
jerry
5/19/08
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I really like all of this but I find section 2 particularly impressive.
Did you used to post here as Jake a long time ago?
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nah. it's just me, jerry. since '98. thank you for your reading it and your compliment.
-jerry
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holy cow, i can't believe i've been reading what you've been writing for 10 years now! do you ever wonder what we've done to and for eachother through this page? i wonder how many regulars have been posting for over 10 years?
-chandler
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i'm coming up on 8.5 years, with a 4 year hiatus during which i wrote nothing here or anywhere else. excellent poetry, btw, jerry. *grace
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i'm at about 9.5....and the best thing about the yellow page is that it's always here, no matter what else is changing, poetry is a constant. great poem jerry.
)Kaleb
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Hey, I'm the person who initially asked if Jerry used to post as "Jake".
Chandler, in response to your question, this site had a completely unforeseeable and fundamental effect upon my entire life.
I started writing poetry here about 10 years ago, then after some encouragement from the 'regulars' of the time I started submitting my work to magazines and e-zines. As a direct consequence of that I met my future wife, and the entire course of my life changed.
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this is pretty damn cool. this page has made significant differences in my life as well. it was a completely random find ten years ago. how long for you, chandler? and mystery person, how long? i am wondering who you are.. and thanks *grace and )Kaleb, i always enjoy reading you folks, but never seem to quite know how to comment. and chandler, too. i've been away for awhile, but it feels good to revisit. raul, p (that character i cannot type), *phenom, INZANE, perry, Jesse, f (is that fallon?), Jake, and plenty of anonymous poets and others...man, i always miss you guys. bring it.
-jerry
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Good work here, jerry. And to answer, I've got 8 years under my belt, and though I may leave for a while, I always find my way back to read, post, or comment. I enjoy this page (and those who post) immensely. *Phenom*
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Hi there.. did someone mention my name? You with the life changing event
Good on ya my friend.. I don't write poems much anymore.. prose for the most part but I do come here to read from time to time and note with pleasure how some names return over and over with better and better work. Proud of you.
The yellow page now looks so much better than the class of 97 but I would not trade those days and times for anything.
God bless you all.. Jake

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shhh....
we're all sleeping now.
zzzzzz....i am only barely awake.
07-16-08
-jerry
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I haven't counted the years but I've been coming to this site for many years. I go back to Audee, Hermestri, and Fallon among all you other fine poets who have been here so long. Though there is no back and forth conversation here, I forget my loneliness, when I come here. It is always amazing to find so much talent here.
sg
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"in curves cut sharp" what and acute line!..In Steinbeck's, "Sweet Thursday", he has Mack giving a toast, "to all of us", he says, a foreshadowing of Carver, it seems, and i would like to offer the same. thank you jerry...f
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I started here about 11 yrs. ago and come back to visit. I learned so much from the good poets here. The place changed my life also. Remember Penny. Alan, Annie, Jake, ?????? A crazy time and lots of fun!!!!! I have loved poetry all my life and this place told me why. Jane (J)
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I, too have been coming here--more off than on, lately--for 10 years. Does anyone know what happened to Window Watcher? JFC